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Fast Friday

The technician arrived at 8 a.m. today to hook me up with my new cable and Internet service.  Woot!  I’m once more done with the dial-up and can effectively cruise around online at home.  This afternoon I called the previous service to cancel.  I had to laugh at the conversation.  I used to have Dish Network.  After the woman asked me why I was cancelling and if there was anything she could do, she began to talk me through the process.  She asked where the satellite dish is located — in the yard or on the roof.  When I told her it’s on the corner of the roof she told me that they didn’t expect me to go up and disconnect it.

You think?  It never entered my mind that they’d do anything other than send a tech to do that work.  With that knotty problem out of the way, she then took several minutes to explain that they’d send me a box to ship back the DVR, that I should leave in the data card (Like I’d know how to remove it?), and that they’d need to have it back within 70 days or there would be a charge.  I assured her that I would return the equipment as soon as I received the box.  She explained a few more things and then we were finished.

If they’d been that thorough in their customer service before, I might have considered staying with them awhile longer — or at least until the next few bad rainstorms reminded me why I wanted to switch from a satellite service.

On to other things.

I’ve done pretty well the last couple of days sticking to the plan to treat my stomach with more kindness.  I’ve consumed mostly smoothies, Greek yogurt with fruit and soup yesterday and today.  I limited my caffeinated tea to one cup in the morning and had only green tea a few other times.  I already feel better than I did on Wednesday and believe I’ll stay with this routine for the weekend.  That should straighten out my system the rest of the way.

Tomorrow I’m planning on my regular Tai Chi class first thing in the morning.  As an extra treat, I’m going to leave by 10:15 and zip over to a Zumba class.  Yes, I really do continue this a treat.  I was at that conference earlier this week on the evening when I would normally do my Zumba class.  I miss it when I don’t do it, so picking up a Saturday class feels right.  Added to this determination is the realization that it has rained so much the last two days that I haven’t been able to take walks with the dogs.  With the exception of Wednesday night’s Tai Chi class and the treadmill routines that I did while away, I haven’t gotten in my usual amount of exercise.  I need to move!

Did I share that I caved on an infomercial and bought a home Pilates machine?  I know I’ve shared that I wanted to try Pilates but, to be honest, I just have not been able to figure out when I could fit the classes into my already packed schedule.  I saw a long presentation on this machine and ended up ordering it.  The equipment arrived shortly before I left town, so I only had a chance to use it once with some quick exercises.  This is no cheap, wimpy apparatus, I was happy to discover.  There are some basic exercises that I can’t do yet, but others that I think will provide the extra toning that I wanted.

The deal included multiple DVDs.  I’m going to make a point of checking out the basic starter one this weekend and see how I do.  Yes, I will report back to all of you.

Earlier today, I had a sudden memory of a quick exchange that took place at the conference I attended.  Although I’d seen some of the people in January so my weight loss was already known to them, we spent more time together over the course of a few days.  One morning, I shared a table with a couple of women I know.  There was a buffet breakfast served.  I walked back to the table with two crisp strips of bacon, a bran muffin and a slice of pineapple on my plate.  One of the women looked at my plate and said, “That’s all you’re eating?  No wonder you’re doing so great with your weight loss.”

This was a good lesson in perspective.   To me that was a full meal.  In fact, even though I knew that I wouldn’t finish the entire muffin, I was worried that I’d overloaded my plate.  To the other people, it was a light breakfast.  I’d left behind the eggs, potatoes and sausage links.  I hadn’t taken a bagel or bread.    (For the record, occasionally eating bacon does not mean I’m totally screwing with my food plan.  It means I’m being normal and letting myself have something I really enjoy.  I’d had eggs the morning before, so I wanted to go for some variety.)Oh what a difference a year and a half makes.  It was a mini-aha moment, for sure.

I still have a lot of times when my eyes are bigger than my stomach.  I’ll eat something on impulse that fills my stomach more than I should.  However, I have many more times when I successfully design my portions.  I continue to train myself to not overeat.  The evening before this breakfast, we’d gone out to enjoy some of the local restaurants.  I accompanied others to a trattoria that served up absolutely delicious food.  At that meal, I skipped having an appetizer and went with a smaller, lighter, fresh pasta dish over a complete, larger entrée.  Even then, I shared and really brought my dinner into the right portion size by giving away a couple of the ravioli.

The trick is to recognize these successes and have more of them.  More good planning and appropriate choices over the snatch and grab of compulsive eating.  All one day, one meal at a time.

A good weekend is ahead to enjoy.  What’s on your schedule?

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Live Every Moment

A short time ago I received news that a dear friend has cancer. His stomach, liver and lung are involved. Please keep him in your prayers.

I met and became friends with his wife and then him back in 2000. They are the nicest, kindest people. He’s close to 80 but lives a full, active life with Jeep adventures, lots of RV travel, good times with friends and family celebrations.

This diagnosis just sucks.

They’ve been planning to spend the winter in the Keys. I hope and pray that his treatments are effective and they can still come. Even if they can’t come, I pray the treatments work. These are two of my favorite people. The world would be a less happy place for those of us who care about him if things do not go well.

That sounds like I’m making this more about me and his other friends. I don’t mean it to be. It’s really all about him, his battle, and their journey together. I know this and I’m also sad. Can’t help but be.

When I responded to the email that broke the news, I reminded them that we have a date to go fishing on my boat and I’m holding him to it. Until I have reason not to, I believe it will happen.

In the meantime, this is another reminder to live every moment and make life the best it can be.

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System Reboot

I’m home after my action-packed weekend and conference. I had a great time, learned a lot and am bubbling with ideas.

I’m also exhausted, achy, and out of sorts. It was much easier to make poor food choices due to ready availability of food that isn’t on my plan. I’ll give myself a C- grade. It would have been a C but the party last night featured wait staff walking around with Jell-O shots, spanikopita, and other stuff. I was weak.

I also drank way too much caffeinated tea in three days. That never used to affect me but now it does. Just like I no longer have great tolerance for alcohol because it goes right into my bloodstream and straight to my head.

My body doesn’t react well to me not following protocol. Five days of sometimes good sometimes bad has really thrown me out of whack.

I’m not even that concerned with whether I gained weight. I simply want to feel better. After the long drive home, I stopped at the supermarket for fresh fruit, greens, veggies, Greek yoghurt and coconut water.

It’s time for a system reboot. I’m paying attention to what my body’s saying and will do my best to respond appropriately.

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Pat Croce Motivations

I’m at a business-related conference.  It’s been an action-packed, intensive day that started with a breakfast meeting and a high-energy, motivational speech by Pat Croce.  Pat started his career physical therapy, specializing in sports medicine when that was a concentration in its infancy.  He worked his way up through the ranks of the NBA organization the Philadelphia Seventy-Sixers.  (Go, Sixers!)  He eventually became a part-owner and, I think, served as its General Manager.  He knows what it was like to take the team from one of the league’s worst to champ status.

In a horrible motorcycle accident, he nearly lost a foot but underwent multiple surgeries and made a full recovery.  His has an intense interest in pirates and pirate history.  Over the years he’s amassed an incredible collection of pirate artifacts.  Several years ago, he opened a pirate museum in Key West, Florida which he moved to St. Augustine a few years ago.  That still bums me out.  I loved that museum.

Anyway, this man has enough spirit and energy for half a dozen people.   He is a big believer in pursuing your dreams with the complete conviction that you can make them a reality.  His talk was a super way to begin this day.  My brain is buzzing from ideas and info triggered by the sessions and roundtables that I attended today.  I’m heading for bed because tomorrow is going to be just as busy.

I wanted to share some of the things Pat said that were my takeaways from the talk.

It’s only impossible until it works.

It’s our choice.

Persistence has no time limit.

I.Q. is not as important as I will.

Unleash the will of the soul.  (That’s from a poem but I cannot for the life of me remember the poet or poem name tonight.  I’m going to ask one of Pat’s colleagues tomorrow.)

Finally, from Emerson, a great reminder:

You cannot do a kindness too soon because you never know when it will be too late.

I don’t usually go up and ask people if I can take a picture, but since my family and I are fans of Philly sports teams, I wanted this shot to send to my brother and nephews.  I think we look good together.  🙂

Pat Croce  Me

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The Right Bra – Part (Double) Deux

Some months back in a post about shopping for new, smaller sized clothes, I proclaimed my agreement with whomever said that the right bra can change your life.  Today I learned that where I shop for bras can make a big difference too.  Since beginning my weight loss journey, I’ve had two bra measurements done at a woman’s plus size clothing store.  No surprise, the band size number has gone down quite a bit — from a 50 to a 40.  However, the cup size didn’t change.  All this time I thought I was still a D cup so I’ve bought several bras in size 40D.  Each time that I had the measurements done in the clothing store, the saleswomen were helpful, but only to a point where they told me the size, pointed me toward the bra section and told me to let them know if I needed any assistance.

I wound up with a couple of new bras the last time, but the selection in that size wasn’t extensive.  So, to round out my supply, I shopped online.  Some of the bras fit better than the others or supported better.  On some, well, there was definitely some “spillage” over the cup.  I figured that was because of the some of the excess skin that’s developed as I lost weight and made do.

As you know, I’m “off the rock” for a business conference.  I had some time to kill today before the conference launched, so I cruised around an outdoor shopping center with some nice stores.  For the last few weeks, I’ve seen a lot of television ads for Soma, a store that specializes in lingerie, sleepwear, and the like.  As I browsed the center, I saw a Soma store and thought, “Why not?”

I entered and was greeted by a friendly woman who asked if she could help.  I explained about my recent weight loss and said that I wasn’t really sure I was using the right bras.  First off, she offered me a measurement  and told me that the numbers came up as a 40 DD. Huh?  I’ve never even tried on a DD cup, even at my heaviest.  I just always went up in band size number.  I was a little skeptical but figured I’d see what they had to offer.

The nice saleswoman became my personal bra consultant.  We talked about the clothing I usually wear and what I needed.  She then excused herself to select some options.  Less than five minutes later she returned with four different styles.  She left the dressing room to give me time to put on the first bra and then came back to assess the fit and comfort, adjust the straps, and see what I thought.  We repeated this process four times!  I don’t think I’ve ever had this much attention for any kind of clothes shopping, short of that bridesmaid’s dress that I needed to have made for me to wear in a friend’s wedding.  I sure as heck haven’t received this level of quality service for a bra.

I have to tell you that I have never been this pleased with a bra purchase before.  I ended up with multiple new ones, all of which fit and feel great, provide the right support, and make me look really good.  Happily, the ones that I wanted were also on sale, so replenishing my bra wardrobe didn’t break the budget.

For the life of me I can’t figure out why I didn’t realize that I needed to go up a cup size.  Since I haven’t gained weight in my boobs, I can only conclude that when you wear a 48 or 50 D, the actual size of the D cup is naturally bigger than the cup in a 40 D.  Make sense?  Whatever is the reality of bra design and manufacturing, the double D cup is definitely the right size for me now.  I, and the girls, are very happy.

I’m not one to endorse a particular store, but I will give high marks to Soma and to Rae, the saleswoman.  I listened to other saleswomen with other customers, and this is clearly how this store chooses to deliver service.  I’m sure there are other specialty lingerie stores that also take this approach.  So here’s what I will endorse.  If you’ve never gone into a store where lingerie is their priority and not just a section, I urge you to treat yourself to the experience.  Get the bra measurement and then relax and enjoy while the woman finds what you need, brings it to you, and then helps you assess whether you like what you’re wearing.

We’re women.  Dressing our breasts is important.  Wearing the right bra –one that fits the way that a bra should — completely changes your silhouette and helps your body look its best.  That matters.  We deserve to look our best and we deserve this level of service to help us achieve the look.

Good luck!

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Correcting Self-Judgments

I went shopping for a car today.  I’ve been planning this for awhile and decided to take advantage of a business trip to make arrangements at a particular dealership.  Car shopping is not my favorite activity.  I hate the sales tactics, the pressure, the whole “If you’re ready to make a deal today I can discuss this with my manager” ploy, etc.  Even though I’m nobody’s fool and I know how to prepare for negotiations, in the past I’ve always felt like I was at a disadvantage or, at the very least, I was intimidated.  I’m sure that I actually put myself at that disadvantage by deciding that the staff at the dealerships judged me by my appearance and figured they could walk all over me.

On the drive out of the Keys, I thought about this a lot.  Car buying situations are just one more example of how I let my excess weight undermine me.  Believe me, I’m sure there are dozens of other circumstances I could think of if I put my mind to it.  It’s like my intelligence, confidence, professional experience and other strengths didn’t matter.  Because I was super obese, inside I felt “less than”.  My friends, that is a sucky feeling, to always let physical size or condition erode influence our spirits, confidence and self-esteem.

I don’t know if, at the time, I was even conscious that this was my mind set and emotional state.  If I was, I certainly didn’t articulate it then, but it would have been a tough thing to admit. 

It was a lot different for me today.  I had a strategy and approach in my head, which is how I used to deal with car buying in the past.  I plan to upgrade to more of a luxury car.  Pre-owned, but still a level up from what I’ve purchased in the past, so I expected the experience to be somewhat different too. 

From the beginning I was significantly more relaxed.  I didn’t have any sense of wanting to shrink inside my physical self when I entered the very elegant showroom.  Instead, I was at ease, personable, and in control.  I sailed with this all through the examination of the car under consideration, the test drive, and the return to the dealership.  I set the pace for studying the car’s history, its features, and all of the other data that the sales consultant produced without letting him rush me. I let him show me the number, explained my terms and very confidently asked him to let me know how much negotiation room he had.

Through it all, I was treated with respect.  Unfortunately, we couldn’t reach a price that was acceptable to both of us.  No harm, no foul.  Their bottom line was out of my budget.   I thanked him for his time and asked him to keep me in mind if a similar, but little bit less expensive car comes available, and drove off with a smile.  Sure I was a little disappointed — I really like that car! — but not disheartened.   I’m proud of myself for handling the experience with solid confidence and style.   

At the same time, I’m a little sad for the woman I was before.  I won’t tear myself up with the “shoulda coulda woulda” and think too long about how other people could only make me feel inferior with my consent.  However, I wish I could give encouragement to anyone who still experiences those kinds of circumstances.  We already know that, yes, there are other people who judge us because of our weight or other physical things.  We need to learn not to do it to ourselves.

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Fast Food

I’m old enough to remember when fast food restaurant chains were a novelty instead of a staple in many daily food plans. The first time Mom took us to the first McD’s restaurant to open in our area, we stared through the window at the metal conveyor belt moving out its line of burger patties. The French fries tasted out of this world to our uncultured taste buds.

Little did I know that this experience was the equivalent of drug dealers hanging around schools to seed new users.

Gagillions of calories, fat grams and sodium mgs later, I look at the chains with the same kind of aversion I used to quit smoking. Twenty six and a half years ago when I enrolled in a smoking cessation program they taught us to not just foster a desire to quit, but to also develop a disgust and loathing for cigarettes.

It helps a lot to approach those well-branded, familiar buildings and think, “Ewww gross.” It’s easier for me to support my aversion since the last time I ran into one when I was starving, the plain burger didn’t slide well into my stomach. I had to throw it up. Gross for sure but it strengthened my resolve.

That’s a long way from the days of driving up, placing an order and asking for two sodas so the people would think I was getting a meal for more than just me.

I’m better off not going in at all but finding other choices if I get caught in a situation where I couldn’t travel with my food. As a last resort, there are a few places where I can find food items that will meet my needs, won’t trash my plan, will give me at least something close to quality, and won’t make me feel like hurling after I eat.

Because I don’t usually go into quick serve chains, I only recently discovered that Subway now offers chopped salads. Any meat or meat and cheese combo available in a sandwich can be mixed into a salad made with exactly my choice of veggies. There are also lower fat dressing options.

Tonight was one of those nights. I leave on a business trip tomorrow so there aren’t many fresh food supplies in the house. It was convenient to run into Subway and have them assemble a salad for me. I made good protein and dressing choices over lettuce, raw spinach, onions and peppers. I feel like the end result was a good balance of nutrition and taste.

Granted, I can eat less than half of the total meal, but that’s okay. I can pack the rest into my travel cooler and have it for lunch tomorrow.

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Fat Rights and Airplane Seats

I will be without Internet service at home for awhile.  The modem is shot.  I’m switching Internet and television services to a different provider but with an upcoming business trip and other work responsibilities, the first day I can be at home for a few hours for the tech to come and do the work is a week from Friday.  Last night I dragged out my old 20 foot phone cord and tried to go online the old-fashioned way via a dial-up number on AOL.  The connection is spotty at best.  So, I’ll post when I can during the day and hope you’ll all bear with me.  If anyone send me an email, it might be awhile before I can retrieve it.  I can only do that from the home computer and last night the service was simply too uncooperative.  My apologies!

Yesterday I had an interesting conversation with a friend of mine who is also a travel agent.  She booked my trips to Alaska and Hawaii.  I haven’t seen her in a few months so the weight loss since last time is pretty noticeable.  I remarked on how much more comfortable it is for me to fly and probably more comfortable for whomever sits next to me on the plane too.  This sparked a conversation about overweight people and airplane seats.  You might remember a few  years ago director/writer/actor Kevin Smith was told by Southwest that he needed to buy a second seat.  Other people have been taken off of planes because of their size and, I gather, because a second adjacent seat wasn’t available for them to buy.

This never happened to me but I can safely say that if I had ever been approached by a flight attendant or gate staff for this, I would have absolutely shriveled and died inside from humiliation.  I will say that I have always done what I could to alleviate inconvenience and discomfort for fellow passengers.  I always took an aisle or window seat and squeezed myself over as far as possible from the person in the middle seat, if there was one.  I used to fly one particular airline a lot.  While they didn’t have a first class, they did offer a couple of rows of “big front seats” for extra money and I paid the premium for those.  For my own comfort, if the flight was more than three hours, I also spent more and flew first class.  Still, whenever I was in a Coach seat, I felt bad about the people I might be crowding.

For many years I needed to request a seat belt extender from the flight attendants.  I’d like to thank all of those people who always handled this request with discretion, quietly slipping me the extender once I was seated.  They made it a lot less embarrassing for me than it could have been otherwise.  I appreciate it so much.

My friend asked me how I felt about airlines sometimes asking overweight passengers to purchase a second seat.  There are individuals and organizations who decry this practice as discrimination and proclaim Fat Rights!  Upon very careful consideration, I don’t think this is discriminatory.  If I, or someone else, is too big to fit in a single seat, then I think we should buy two.  My friend and I agreed that the person in the next seat has a right to be comfortable in the whole seat they paid for without someone else’s body overflowing onto them or pressing against them throughout the entire flight.

I believe it would be difficult to establish guidelines, however.  How could staff make the decision as to which person to charge extra?  I don’t think you can go by weight itself.   A person 5’5″ who weighs 250 pounds is going to fit differently than a 6′ tall person of the same weight.  Do they wrap a tape measure around a person’s butt and stomach to determine whether they fit in the seat without overflow?  Do they go by body mass index (BMI)?  That’s a really knotty challenge.

When the situation arises, I believe that airline staff can and should handle the matter with professionalism and discretion.  It’s difficult enough for the overweight person to be singled out.  Regardless of how you feel about obesity and personal responsibility, in the words of Plato, “Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.”

What do you think?

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Home Without Internet

Checking in after my whirlwind trip to and from New Hampshire. Sorry in advance that this will be brief but I’m exhausted. The drive home down the Overseas Highway was horrid with often blinding rain. Not having Internet connection at home means I’m typing on my phone. Ok, enough whining.

I had a great time with my brother, sister in law and many of our friends. I did okay food wise, did two treadmill sessions and feel good about myself regarding my whole effort. I’m not perfect but I’m so much better than I was.

I used to take any reason or excuse to overeat or eat poorly. Now I strive for balance. I teeter, sway and sometimes I need to steady myself but I can feel the improvement.

One day, one food choice at a time.

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Sleepy in the Airport

It’s 5:30 am and I’m waiting to board my plane. This is never my best time of day. I got up at 3:30 and, even after a cup of hot tea, I predict I’ll be asleep before the plane lifts off.

Oh how grateful I am that I inherited my dad’s ability to nap anytime, anywhere.

It is more challenging to be food plan vigilant when rushed, stressed, angry, frustrated, harried, or tired. Feel free to throw in any other state of being that I missed. I realized that again on the drive up yesterday when I stopped for hot tea to ward off sleepiness when I still had 90 minutes more to drive. That’s the only reason those couple of munchkins seemed like a good idea.

This morning, food choices were limited. No skim milk was available at the hotel at dark o’clock. Here at the airport there are a few places open, including an espresso bar with trays of ginormous pastries.

I wanted one, believe me. My mouth watered, stomach rumbled, and my eyes probably took on the dreamy gaze of a woman looking at her lover.

I feel pretty damn good that I bypassed the baked goods and chose a low fat yogurt instead. Booyah!

Each bite and every food choice really does matter. Each deviation from the plan delays the attainment of my ultimate goal. If I’m going to veer I want it to be because I made a deliberate, conscious decision to do so and not because I let tiredness or emotion rule.

Have a great day, everyone.

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