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I’m more tired than usual tonight. So much so that I’m too lazy to turn on my computer.

It’s been a good day. I fulfilled my activity commitment beginning with a brisk walk with the dogs, practicing Tai Chi at work with a co-worker, and ending with a full hour class.

My right knee’s complaining a bit so I’m treating it to some ice.

I can’t decide whether to treat myself by taking a hot bath or by going to bed early. Decisions decisions.

I well remember nights when I’d come home from a day at work that was more physically strenuous than usual. My entire body ached, twinged, and downright hurt. I’d swallow 800mgs of Motrin, flop in my recliner and whine.

At least now when I ache it’s because I exercised and, ultimately, did some good for my body. I’m careful not to push myself to the point where I damage my joints.

Previously, I was in pain just from trying to keep up with the requirements of my job. That’s not a good or happy way to live.

This way is so much better.

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Moving in the Right Direction

I’m losing weight again after a week post-vacation where I gained a few pounds and then my system shut down.  I blame “empty” carbs.  I don’t actually know if they’re the reason, but that’s what I have to work with and I’m going with it.  I remember my surgeon telling me that even a few empty carbs would slow my weight loss, so this seems to make sense.  By empty I mean bread, crackers, white potatoes, rice, etc.  I don’t count beans or bean products (like hummus) or lentils.  I also don’t count fruits as empty carbs.  As long as I don’t pig out on them, they seem to do more good than harm.

So for the last few days I’ve been careful and not eaten empty carbs.  I’ve found ways to work in more veggies and fruit along with my protein.  I haven’t indulged in chocolates and the like.   Today the scale showed that I’ve already lost a couple of the pounds that I gained.  I’m definitely back moving in the right direction.

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I also discovered the power of prunes.  Those yummy dried plums are helping my system move better too.

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Overall, I just feel so much better.  I’m over the jet lag.  I’m done with the nagging cough and congestion-that-didn’t-feel-like-a-cold-but-wasn’t-any-fun.  I’ve gotten more rest.  Emotionally I feel better too.  Physical-emotional-mental recovery.  It’s a total package.

I’m really pleased, psyched even, that I’ve been able to pull my act together and get back on track.  Anybody who has a compulsive disease or an addiction can probably relate to how hard it is to climb back onto the wagon after you fall off.  I have a history of screwed up diets where I’d gain all of the weight back, so this illustrates for me that I have come a long way in my recovery and ability to re-motivate.

When I prepared to post my ziplining pictures, a bunch of metaphors and comparisons ran through my head.  I feel that way again tonight as I’m ready to share more photos from the crater hike.  The unbelievably difficult, strenuous, challenging crater hike.

I might have said this before, but when we booked this particular excursion, we expected a three mile hike out to see a crater.  The description noted that we should be reasonably fit.  Given my work with Zumba, Tai Chi, water aerobics and simple walking, I knew that a three mile hike wouldn’t be too much, so I was gung ho to go on the excursion.

What we discovered was that it was going to be more like 4.5 miles with real hiking down into the crater on sometimes difficult, even treacherous ground and lava rock, across the lava bed and then back up and out of the crater.  Honestly, had we had a really clear idea of what the trip entailed, we probably wouldn’t have done it.

There were times during the three or so hours that I was near-miserable.  However, I knew that I would make it and complete the hike.  I might be slower than others in the group.  I might not be as sure-footed.  There were times when I had to stop and catch my breath, but I kept going.  I know with a rock solid certainty, I would not have been able to do this hike a year ago.  Hell, I don’t know if I could have done it last summer before I began doing Zumba every week.

Yes, I didn’t actually have a choice.  It’s not like I could stay in the crater or on the trail and nobody was going to come and carry me up the rest of the way.  I had to do it.  Step by step by step.

That’s my take away lesson.  One, that my success is up to me, choice by choice and step by step by step.  Others can support, encourage, cheer and congratulate me.  I can take hold of a helping hand now and then to steady myself, but I’m the one that has to supply the energy and determination.  I’m also the only one who can keep myself from giving up and force myself to continue moving in the right direction.

Here are some pictures from the hike that turned out to be so much more than a walk in the woods.

Looking down from the elevation more than 3874 feet.

Looking down from the elevation more than 3874 feet.

Beautiful, rocky ground.

Beautiful, rocky ground.

We made it down, then we had to hike across the crater.

We made it down, then we had to hike across the crater.

Made it!

Made it!

After we finished at the crater and Volcanoes National Park, we went to see Akaka Falls. (Another short hike.)

After we finished at the crater and Volcanoes National Park, we went to see Akaka Falls. (Another short hike.)

On the road, we stopped to admire a pretty bay.

On the road, we stopped to admire a pretty bay.

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Last Cruise Day

Spotty 3G again yesterday prevented me from posting. Sorry!

We had an easy day yesterday. We took a bus tour to Waimea Canyon. It’s gorgeous but all in all the trip was boring.

I also went on a bit of a food frolic by eating too many carbs and sugary crap. I felt sort of sluggish after the long bus ride. When we got back to the ship I did a couple of laps around the deck to recover.

Yesterday evening we cruised the Na’Pali coastline which is breathtaking! Whales were also all around including one very active baby. I caught its breaches and tail slaps on my camera so you’ll see photos in the future.

This morning we disembark and spend the day in Honolulu, including touring Pearl Harbor and the USS Arizona. Our flight leaves tonight. It’s going to be a lonnngg journey home.

This was definitely one of the best vacations of my life, packed with adventures and new experiences. I am both elated and humbled. I could not physically have done this had I not lost weight and gotten more fit. My determination is also refreshed to reach my goals and then maintain the new, healthy me.

Thanks for taking the trip with me. Aloha and Mahalo.

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Me vs the Volcano

Today in Hilo on the big island we set out for a trip to Volcanoes National Park and Akaka Falls. The excursion included a 3 mile round trip hike out to the Kilauea Iki Crater. The trip description said people should be reasonably fit. My friend and I reasonably fit that description so this should be a breeze.

Not quite. A different company now runs these tours and the cruise line description doesn’t truly describe the adventure. You don’t walk out to look at the crater. You hike down switchbacks to descend 400 feet to the lava bed over hard rock with often challenging footing. Then you trek across the lava bed of the crater before climbing another mile of looping switchbacks back up 400 feet.

Strenuous, often tricky and challenging on the legs and cardio system. But guess what? I freaking did it! It wasn’t easy but I succeeded.

A year ago I wouldn’t have been able to do it. Six months ago before regular Zumba classes I might not have been able to take on the challenge. I was nervous some of the time and grateful for a walking stick and a hand over some particularly precarious spots, but I made it.

The way up was killer. Our guide, a wonderful young guy named David, told me just to go at my own pace and take breaks when I needed. I followed that advice. For inspiration I sang Springsteen songs in my head. My right knee began to tremble on the last switchback but I powered through and reached the group at the top.

It was so worth it. I’m very proud of myself and of my friend for taking on the challenge.

We returned to the ship exhausted. To reward myself I booked a bamboo massage. After a hot shower I experienced 75 minutes of muscle soothing hot oil bliss.

Bonus NSV- for the first time i can wear a spa robe and the bathrobe in the stateroom. They fit!

It’s been another outstanding day. Here are a few photos of today’s adventure.

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Walking Waikiki

After a fun Polynesian culture show with lots of dancing last night we crashed into bed before 11.

By 6 am I was ready to get up and moving but it was too dark to find clothes without waking up my friend. I held out until enough light came in behind the blinds. Then I gathered up casual wear and headed out for a walk along Waikiki beach.

It was beautiful with gold sand and blue water with a cool breeze. Lots of people were walking and jogging. Surfers and swimmers paddled in the water. The view was great and I felt terrific getting in a brisk 35 minutes of exercise.

Even though I’m on vacation I’m really trying to stay close to plan. I’ve had a muffin a couple of times for breakfast but not a lot of carbs at other meals.

Yesterday and today we ate at a great beachside restaurant. I had the same meal each time because it was divine. Prime rib poke – cubes of prime rib meat flash seared so it’s delicious and tender. They drizzle an aioli made with a Hawaiian smoked meat over it and serve with grilled onions over greens.

If you’re going to pick a beef protein source, this is a good one.

Before lunch today we walked around Honolulu Zoo for around two hours. I have definitely gotten in some exercise!

We’re heading for the ship now. Maui and snorkeling tomorrow!

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Wins and Losses

Yesterday at work, we celebrated the birthday of one of our top execs.  A group of us usually orders in lunch from the restaurant of the birthday celebrant’s choice and we gather on the porch to share the meal.  I’d volunteered to pick up a birthday cake on my way into the office.

It was a nice time.  I ordered a roasted lamb sandwich with egg plant, feta and tsatsiki sauce.  I ate the meat out of half of the sandwich with a couple of bites of eggplant and a little of the foccacia bread.  Then I wrapped the rest of the sandwich back up and stuck it in my bag to bring home.

When it was time to cut the cake, some big pieces went around the table.  Everyone to the left of the birthday guy was female.  All of the guys were to his right.  It was sort of comical because those plates of cake made a full circle as we women kept passing on the bigger pieces.  When it was my turn I asked for a very thin slice.  He cut it so thin that the top half fell off.  He started to scoop it up to add it to my plate but I assured him that what was left was more than enough.   It actually was.  The piece I had was maybe two inches by one inch by half an inch thick — if that, but it gave me a good taste of deep chocolate with a little bit of buttercream frosting and I was completely satisfied.  That was a big win for me — to be able to enjoy a bit of the celebration cake without overeating.

Since January started, my weight loss has been going well.  I’ve done a good job of being vigilant about carbs.  I identified when I was letting them creep a little too much into my daily plan and cut back.  I woked up this morning an experienced a very encouraging number on the scale which started my day off in a great way.  I had Tai Chi class and then went to get a facial.  I love that sort of pampering.  After that I drove down to Big Pine to the well known, popular “flea market” and saw a friend.  Then I strolled down the rows of different merchandise.

I’ve been a little concerned about having enough clothes for Hawaii.  The dresses I plan to take might be a bit too big by the time our cruise ship sails.  I thought about getting them taken in before I go but then decided that they probably won’t hang like sacks, so I should be okay.  I also stressed a bit about casual tops to go over my shorts or capri pants.  The ones I have that I’ve bought over the last few months fit okay, but, again, at the rate I’m losing will they be too big in three weeks?

The cool thing about this flea market is that they have a pretty array of different styles of clothes, but most are great for tropical weather since we live in the Keys.  In one “stall”, I found some hand-painted T-shirts and bought one for the wildly expensive price of $10.  A few stalls after that displayed a colorful selection of batik dresses, tops and pants.   I found a dress and then put together a top-pant set.  Each piece was around $12.  That quickly, I was able to round out my vacation wardrobe without busting my budget.

I could not have done this a year ago at the sizes I was wearing.  It is so much fun to go wherever I want and find clothes that fit!  Another win.

When I got home, a freak thing happened.  I couldn’t get in the house.  The lock and knob on my front door have been a wonky for months.  This morning when I left, the door stuck.  I was in a horror so I slammed it closed.  In doing so, I completely messed up the inner mechanism.  When I tried to unlock the door, the key moved back and forth but didn’t completely disengage the lock.  As luck would have it, bad luck anyway, the only locksmith in town is on vacation and another locksmith from forty miles away was covering.  He could come, he said, but it was going to take awhile.

I sat on my steps, griping to a friend, feeling like a dope, and, in general, aggravated.  I also felt bad for my dogs who intermittently cried, whined and barked inside.  Clearly they didn’t understand why they could hear me but I wasn’t coming inside.   When I said to my friend that I couldn’t figure out how the locksmith was going to get in, she told me he could always pry or hammer the knob off the door.

It dawned on me that I’d probably need a new one.  Rather than settle for whatever he might happen to have in his truck, I ran up to Home Depot to pick out a couple of options.  Unfortunately, the check out line had a display of candy.   Mentally, I really didn’t want that pack of M&Ms, but emotionally I craved them like they were going to save the day.

Honestly.  The only way a package of multi-colored candy coated chocolate things could save the day was if they had power tools and knew how to use them on the door.  Unfortunately, my common sense lost the skirmish with my compulsion.  I ate the M&Ms on my ride home.  Instead of enjoying the chocolate, the whole episode just pissed me off at myself.

The locksmith got to my house about half an hour after I got back and in less than an hour he’d gotten the door open and replaced the hardware with one of the sets I’d bought.   It didn’t cost me an arm and a leg.  The dogs didn’t pee in the house.  The new set resolves the problems I’d had for months.  Things were once more on a positive uptick, except that I was still annoyed that I’d eaten the chocolate.

I went out on the porch with the dogs and realized that we were experiencing a beautiful late afternoon.  Rather than sit around feeling the calories congeal into fat, I decided to take Nat and Pyxi for a bridge walk.   I’m so glad that I opted for exercise.  The temperature was cool with a light breeze and the lowering sun painted colors across the sky.  Not only was this good for my mood, it was good for my body, as well as for my dogs.  I definitely walked off most of the M&M calories, too.

Definitely a win to put the cap on what was  mostly a great day!

Here are a couple of images from the walk that I shot with my cell phone.  That white dot in the photo to the right is the moon.  Enjoy!

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Holiday Wishes

Wishing a very Merry Christmas to all who celebrate the day and a day of peace and joy to all of us.

Thank you for being part of this blog.

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National Heartbreak

This afternoon I nearly whined in my doctor’s office because my sleep test results weren’t what I hoped.  Yes, the apnea and hypopnea are greatly improved; just not enough for me to stop using the CPAP machine.  As I departed through the waiting room, I looked up at the television and saw the news report of the horrible murder of children and their teachers in Connecticut.  Suddenly, my upset over having to use a machine to help protect my health felt insignificant.  How stupid of me to whine over needing to use a machine to protect my health when 20 children and seven adults were shot to death.

This is so horrible.  It’s senseless.  The heartbreak shared by everyone is so huge, it’s like there are weights pressing on all of our chests, making it difficult to breathe.  I’m sure that somewhere I should find some compassion for the killer.  If it hasn’t already, then in the not too distant future we’ll probably learn that he had “some problems”  I’m sorry, but right now tonight, I’m fresh out of compassion for the young man.  All that I have or can generate belongs to the families of the shooting victims and their friends and neighbors in the community.

Maybe in the days ahead I’ll find an extra prayer to say for the soul of the killer.  Tonight, my prayers are for the fallen, their families, and all who love and care about them.

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Baby Dolphin!

Gang, this cold is kicking my ass. In place of an insightful or interesting post, how about I share a video and picture of a baby dolphin that was born earlier today? Click herehere!

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Still Serene

I’m winding down the last day of the three day detox-cleanse.  It’s been another good, serene day.  I started with a Tai Chi class this morning and then went down to a local crafts-arts fest and picked up some pretty holiday gifts.  I also saw a friend there for the first time since February.  (She only lives part of the year in the Keys.)  There’s obviously a big difference in my weight since the last time she saw me, so you can imagine her reaction.  Her first words after, “Oh my God, Mary!” came as she hugged me.  “I can put my arms around you.”

That really touched me – literally and figuratively.  I know what it feels like to have lost more than 125 pounds.  I experience it countless ways every single day.  Today was the first time I thought about someone else experiencing the difference in a way other than just by what they see.   I have to say, it’s pretty cool to think of being able to share better hugs with people I care about.

In addition to booths of pretty, hand-made items, the festival had several food vendors.  The whole, “stick to the written plan” approach worked.  While I would have loved some souvlaki or a bit of baklava from the Greek vendor, and the crispy thick grilled cheese sandwiches with shot of tomato soup looked damn appetizing, I just shrugged them off.  Nope, food, not for me today.

I’m on a roll.

I don’t know how much weight I’ve lost with the detox.  On the Dr. Oz show, people lost between three to five pounds.  I’ll find out tomorrow morning.  It will be nice to see few pounds come off quickly, although that wasn’t my main reason for doing this detox.  Honestly, I don’t know if I’m supposed to feel super great and energized or what.  (TMI alert!)  I have to believe that the toxins are being flushed out of my body because I’ve had to pee at least three times as frequently each day.  If my kidneys were sentient, I’m sure they’d be positively gleeful.

Did I talk before about incorporating some of the ingredients into my regular food plan?  It looks like unsweetened almond milk has fewer calories and carbs than skim milk and no cholesterol.  I think I’m going to start using it in my daily morning protein shake.  It has fewer grams of protein, but I’m also going to add a tablespoon of ground flax seed which will not only help the protein count but will also add a few more grams of fiber.  I realllllly need to get more fiber into my daily diet. (Second TMI alert!)  Constipation continues to be an issue most days.  Since I continue to eat mostly protein and not a whole hell of a lot of vegetables, I need to work on a solution.  I already add a fiber supplement to my morning protein shake, but I guess I can look into other places to add it.  Every gram will help!

Can you tell that I’m in general musing mode?  That’s probably because I’m still pretty serene.  It was a wise decision to arrange this long weekend for myself.  I’ve had great “me” time, done a few things that I wanted to and not much else, worked in daily naps, and, in general, enjoyed peaceful quiet.  This has all been important because I have a very busy week ahead, including a 24 hour round trip to New Jersey.

Starting tomorrow morning I’m going to pre-plan my food choices for the day, which will give less things over which to stress.  If things get hectic and crazy, I’ll look back on this weekend and remember the healing power of serenity.

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