Having compulsive eating disorder weighs on more than one’s body. It weighs on the mind and the spirit. I spend a lot of time thinking about the disease; hoping that I’ll stay on track and worrying that I won’t. Then there’s the residual mental ass-kicking I deliver to myself when I mess up. The thoughts and stress are almost as obsessive as the eating challenges.
This is one way that having a defined food plan truly benefits me. When I pre-plan my choices and prepare, I don’t have to spend all day thinking about what I’m going to eat, stressing about each meal option, etc.
Just like the act of binge eating or any kind of compulsive eating can create other issues for me, when I am deep in diseased thinking, the stress bleeds over into other areas. I start to worry and fret over other things in my life from work situations to managing routine daily activities at home. I don’t fall apart and become ineffectual but I don’t sleep as well and I use more energy coping with things that I normally handle with ease.
It is a huge relief when I am not beset by the thoughts and emotions of compulsive overeating. I am so much more at ease when I’m living in abstinence and recovery. Right now I’m in that good, evenly balanced mental state. I’m less stressed and more relaxed.
All in all it is a much better state in which to live.
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