It is much easier for me to take care of other people than it is to take care of myself, or to let others help me take care. I’m learning. Okay, at least I’m trying to teach myself. The whole boot experience is a good teaching aid. Since it is physically more awkward for me to get around, it sort of forces me to not overdo.
Since I never asked the doctor why the boot is necessary, I’ve assumed it’s to stabilize and cushion the foot while the healing process progresses. It could be all that and also the whole awkward-can’t-overdo thing too.
Today for example, I opted out of a lawn party benefit for a local shelter. I wanted to go and then thought practically about the fact that there wasn’t going to be a lot of seating. Knowing that, I assessed how I’d feel about standing for an hour at the minimum. I didn’t feel too enthusiastic because I’ve discovered that standing for more than a few minutes gets uncomfortable. Weighing everything I realized that if I really wanted to take care of myself during this time, I should stay home and limit my activities to things around the house.
I’d like to always be good about taking care of myself. How many times have I circled around to this before? Self-care is so hard to perform and maintain.
I do better externally. I have manicures and pedicures. My hair appointments are scheduled like clockwork. I usually remember to get a facial every couple of months. Lately, I’ve gotten massage therapy more regularly too. Hey, it only took me a couple of months before I went to the doctor about the plantar fasciitis. 😉
Unfortunately, the truly good self-care when it comes to my food plan and eating is not nearly as consistent as my manicures. I’ve improved when it comes to the quality of my food, but that whole compulsive behavior continues to be a tough challenge. I’m not sure what need I’m feeding when I compulse, what owie think I’m taking care of. Puzzling. Upsetting. Annoying.
Tomorrow, all I can do is get up with do my best. Resolve to be abstinent. Take care of myself in ways that truly do represent actually taking care of myself.
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I wish I had an answer for CE, but I don’t. Just rest assured you are not alone. I’m right there with you. {{{HUGS}}}