I’m really looking forward to the RT Convention. There are so many friends that will be there this year. Some I haven’t seen in a year; others even longer than that! I would be excited to see them just because I love them, miss them, and don’t get to see them nearly often enough.
The fact that I’ve lost 100 to 160 pounds since they’ve seen me (depending on whether they were at RT last year) is just extra special. The really cool thing is that my friends love me no matter what I weigh, but they’re all really excited for me because I’m so much more healthy at this weight.
I’m anticipating a lot of fun, including much dancing. Speaking of anticipation, mine is practically off the charts tonight.
It wasn’t always this way. I remember years of looking forward to seeing friends where my enthusiasm was always tainted to some degree by my disappointment that I hadn’t lost weight or, even worse, if I’d gained back weigh previously lost and then some. I’d always arrive, see people and fill in unexpressed reactions in my head. It’s hard not to do that when you’re so conscious of being drastically overweight. I’m not the only obese person who reads assessments in other peoples’ eyes or facial expressions. Even if those assessments aren’t obvious, we search for them, positive that they exist. I guess we project a lot.
Not this year. Not anymore. If I anticipate anything, it will be the sheer delight on my friends’ faces when we see each other. The same delight that they’ll see on my face.
I’m so excited, I’m practically bouncing in my seat. Like Tigger.
TTFN, friends!
Yay!!!
I’m so glad you are so happy and bouncy! And remember: the most wonderful thing about Tiggers is your the only one! (Except not really because I’m one too, but you know what I mean.) And you’ll be able to handle dancing much more easily after this last year of weight loss and exercise!
This post makes me so happy.. and I so get it! I hope you have a blast…and get all the kudos you deserve, Mary! I KNOW it’s not all about the weight.. and our friends love us no matter what (and I’m SOOO cognizant and appreciative of that!) but the truth is.. its a JOY to be living at a better weight. And it’s a BIG GIANT accomplishment, and deserves all the kudos in the world. Bask in it, girl. I am so proud of you, excited for you (my hero), and wish I could be there too. Maybe next year. Enjoy to the fullest. And send pics. xxoo