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Keeping on Track

on February 15, 2012

We’ve all done it.  Started a diet with lots of energy and determination, absolutely positive that this time we’d stick with it and achieve our goal.  Bolstered by early success we soldier on until the day that something happens and our motivation shuts down.  Maybe we cheat a little here or slack off over there.  Sometimes a stressful or upsetting situation hits us and we turn to comfort food.  Whatever the case, our weight loss train derails and we can’t get back on track.

That was my history.  I could diet like a champ and lose weight — sometimes as much as 100 pounds — but then, for whatever reason, I’d stop and eventually gain back all of the weight and then some.   In more recent years I’d sustain long enough to lose 20, maybe 40 pounds, and one day — gone.  The motivation shut down like someone turned off a switch.  For the life of me, I couldn’t switch it back on.

I played that game too many times to go the same route again which also contributed to my decision to have weight loss surgery.  Today, however, I’m hit with old fears.  I’m nearing the 40 pound loss mark and I’m nervous that I’ll wake up and the switch will have hit Off again.

It’s a useless, groundless fear.  With my new sleeve and severely restricted stomach capacity, I will have to make a concentrated, deliberate effort to sabotage myself.  I’d have to replace healthy protein shakes with nonstop, calorie-laden milkshakes or something.

The switch is not going to move to the Off position and extinguish the motivation.  I’ve given myself a safeguard.  My weight will continue to go down.  I might hit a physical stall while my body adjusts, but that’s not the same as having the success going away.  I need to hold onto that reality and let go of the fear which does nothing but mess up my head.

This train’s just going to keep powering on.

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3 responses to “Keeping on Track

  1. londonmabell says:

    “I need a lot of improvement, not even half way to destiny
    But I’m a train that’s moving and everyday I’m picking up speed”

    – Brandy “Camouflage” song

    You go baby!

  2. Hope says:

    You can do it! You can do it! You can do it!

  3. Judie says:

    You go “Little Engine that Could”….
    We know you can, we know you can, we know you can.

    Keeping a positive outlook is a key factor and it looks like you’ve got that.

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