Reconnecting my spirit is not an instantaneous thing. I don’t want to cop to being an instant gratification type of person, but sometimes patience with the process is not my strongest suit. I want there to be a switch I can flick from “off” to “on”. Having decided that I need this re-connection, I want it right now.
This in itself is a lesson. But wait, there’s more. There isn’t a definitive guide to attaining the spiritual part of a recovery program. No, do this then this, followed by this, this and this and, bingo, you’ll have connected spiritually. It’s more of a thought setting forth the intention, verbalized to make it real, remembering it all when in action mode and then letting it be my guide when facing food options and behavior choices.
I can’t always do this one day at a time. Oh heck, if I’m being honest, I never do it one day at a time. Smaller time increments work better so I do it one meal at a time and, frequently, one food choice at a time.
Instead of rushing or forcing the process, I’m taking it slow. There’s no deadline, as far as I’m concerned. This is a disease that never leaves us, so building a life of recovery just has to roll out in whatever way it will.
What matters is that when the alarm goes off tomorrow, I remember my goals and the steps, and start the day literally and figuratively putting one foot in front of the other.
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