We’re two days into the week, my friends. How’s everybody doing with choosing positive attitudes, starting our days off right and building great weeks? I think I’m achieving about a 75-25 ratio of positive to not-quite-as-positive. That 25 percent hasn’t been bad, it just hasn’t been quite as up and great as the rest of my time. A little stress here, some unforeseen complications there, a soupcon of annoyance, blah blah blah, yada, yada, yada.
It’s okay, however, because I’m consciously choosing to not give up the glow. I’m smiling, shrugging, and finding the humor in the situations when they try to affect me with negativity. It’s just a nicer way to live. Not false, not “faking it until I make it”, but simply choosing to be happy. That isn’t always a simple choice. Today I feel like it’s working. This helps set me up for success in other areas, like my eating. For this week, so far so good. I hope you’re having good ones too.
I’m not sure why the idea of exploring trust came to my mind a little while ago, but it popped in so I’m going with it. All in all, I consider myself a trustworthy person. Maintaining my integrity matters to me and lights my way like the headlights on my car illuminate a dark, unfamiliar road. Acting from a place of integrity is a good guideline. When faced with difficult choices, “doing the right thing” usually turns out to be the best option.
I don’t have much problem with this in external situations. I trust myself to make the appropriate choice when called to do so, as long as I’m doing it outside of my self. When it comes to trusting myself in other ways, I’m not always so sure. That’s how powerful compulsion can be on a person. Regardless of what I want, I can’t always trust myself to make the right choices when it comes to food. The compulsion to eat inappropriately can be incredibly strong, steamrolling right over what I believe I actually want. If I’m around food that isn’t on my plan, I might successfully ignore it, but depending on how I feel and what else is happening, I might not.
This kind of imbalance does not shore up a person’s self-trust, that’s for sure.
So in the mornings, when I’m choosing my attitude for the day, I’ve decided to consciously focus on my self-trust. I think this will be another way to set myself up for success with my daily food plans. I believe that I can stay aware, be stronger than my compulsive disorder, and maintain that strength. I know that I’ve complained that losing these last 60 pounds is a real challenge, but I need to trust that I’ll succeed. If that’s another choice that I need to make at the beginning of every day, then I’ll make it.
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I’m doing well, mostly feeling positive. My BFF is kind of an Eeyore, and he’s annoyed and cranky quite often (his issues). I found myself countering his negative statements with positive ones and, as we were driving to an errand, realized something that I shared with him. Under most circumstances, when he is being negative, I find myself getting more and more chipper. I don’t know if it’s just a rebellious nature on my part, striving for balance, or just to tick him off, but it works. Unfortunately, when I am feeling depressed and negative, I counter all his positive talk with doom and gloom, particularly when I feel like staying stuck in the negative state.
I’m glad you are working on your self-trust. (This is an issue I also have and plan to talk about on my blog sometime soon.) Knowing you can trust yourself about food choices will be a huge breakthrough for you; making the choice to do so on a daily basis is tremendously powerful and positive! You are such a wonder!