Weight loss surgery will forever alter the physical capacity of your stomach. Follow the doctor’s instructions and a food plan and you will lose weight. Lots of it. Quickly. Losing weight makes you feel better. It improves your ability to move which can lead to you wanting to exercise more which eventually makes you fitter. All of positive changes in your life can do tremendous, positive things for your overall mood, attitude and outlook on life.
All of these wonderful things, however, do not guarantee that you will be cheerful and happy every single day of the rest of your life.
I’m having one of those non-cheerful, non-happy days. There is no discernible, identifiable reason. I’m just cranky and out of sorts today.
In the past, I would have used the negative emotions as a reason to eat lots of sweets or big quantities of any food. This would have provided a temporary food boosted euphoria, followed by an emotional crash where I would beat up on myself for bingeing.
Today I managed to stick to my food plan with the addition of a few small handfuls of peanuts. No, they weren’t liquid or mushy, but not the worst thing in the world for me. I feel good about the food plan part of my day.
But I’m still cranky. The fact that I’m not in a great mood is making me even more annoyed. Here’s the lesson, as far as I can tell. Sometimes you don’t have to excavate beneath the emotion, digging for a reason. Sometimes a bad mood is just a bad mood.
Everybody has them from time to time — even those who don’t have addictions or disorders or whatever.
I don’t have a plan of action for the rest of the night. That’s okay. I’m just going to ride it out. This too shall pass. I’m sure I’ll be back on the sunny side of myself tomorrow.
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One bright spot. The shoes I ordered arrived today. They fit and even look reasonably pretty. So, yay for that!
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Yep, when I get into one of those moods I just bury myself in a good book. But if I don’t have a good book then it gets worse.
I like that, Skye: “Sometimes a banana is just a banana.” ; )
I’m so glad to hear about the shoes. I am relieved. Yes, sometimes it is just one of the those days. In Breakfast at Tiffany’s, Holly Golightly talks about the difference between the blues and the “mean reds”. The blues are just part of life. I use that a lot when I a having “the blues”. I am also trying hard not to use food as a mood elevator. I don’t think it does terrible damage in my case, but reading this blog and other points of information have convinced me that it is not a very useful habit. I have been trying to think of other things to replace it. But maybe riding it out is the best answer.
Sometimes it’s tiredness, sometimes hunger, sometimes hormones, sometimes it’s because I didn’t exercise, sometimes it’s because the universe is thwarting me and sometimes it’s just because. At least you don’t have to apologize to the other people in your house for snapping and snarling at them for no reason. That’s what usually happens to me.
At least there’s one bright spot! 🙂 Yay for the shoes!
Sorry you are in a bad mood. And you are right: sometimes a bad mood is just a bad mood. Sometimes trying to figure it out can just make it worse because you can come up with all sorts of reasons to be in the bad mood. “That! And that! Oh yeah, and that, too!” Good for you for realizing that sometimes, a banana is just a banana. 😀