I didn’t have any deep, dramatic new realizations today about my weight loss surgery, improved body, old relationship with food, new relationship with food or anything else.
It’s kind of cool. What I realized is that in not-quite-ten weeks, a lot of the stuff has become more automatic and common place. I don’t stand in front of my refrigerator in the morning, agonizing over what to eat or what to pack to take to work. I have plenty of choices in the fridge and make my selections in about a minute or less. When it’s time to eat a snack or get out my lunch, I don’t think about foods that I didn’t select or wish for other possibilities.
To live a day like this when food is not an all-consuming obsession is truly remarkable.
I still have a long way to go. I goofed up yesterday and got so caught up in conversation at a picnic that I wasn’t mindful of how quickly I ate. Luckily, I was able to quell the “foamies” and nausea that arose through some slow, steady breathing and avoided throwing up in front of the group. I’m not a pro or veteran of the weight loss surgery journey by any means. But I’m learning and changing in positive ways. I need to remember that it’s all about progress, not perfection.
I’m sure there will be more than several days ahead when I stress again about food choices or resent some aspect of my new life or just hit a rough patch for no discernable reason. I am absolutely positive that I will continue to uncover new realizations, “aha” moments, and all sorts of things that will help me continue to improve my physical, mental and emotional health.
But just for today, everything’s on an even keel. Nothing earth-shattering and that’s more than fine.
Weighty Matters 
Mary, your journey so far has been incredibly difficult and you have charged forward with determination that is admirable! I believe your journal writing every day to write down everything good bad and ah ha moments is probably the biggest key to staying on track. I think it helps organize your mind. You are able to adjust, learn and tweak situations and move on to the next day. I am glad that routine is becoming the norm for what ,when, and how to eat, no day is going to be perfect. I am learning so much from your writings. Thanks for sharing.
Not being consumed* by the idea of food would be major progress for me, how cool that you’ve begun to reach that point! Some times the days when we don’t have anything earth shattering, but can simply ENJOY, are the most lovely.
Julie
*pun intended