I’m never sure what topics and posts will really interest other people, but Dating Game drew a higher than average number of views. Thanks to all for stopping by and for the sharing in comments. I write this for me first, and as you’ve noticed, the subjects run the gamut. There isn’t much that I won’t talk about which doesn’t mean I have no filter, rather that I feel comfortable in this space. Thanks to all of you for increasing and maintaining the comfort zone.
If I were going to do a subtitle for this post, it would be, “Hello, feet. Nice to see you again.” As I lose more weight, I’m getting re-acquainted with parts of my body that have been concealed for many, many years; buried, actually, beneath all of the fat and swelling.
After decades of not looking at myself in the mirror any longer than absolutely necessary, it’s kind of fun looking at the changes in my body and watching parts of me reemerge. Look, there’s my jaw line. Hello, collar bones. It’s been awhile. I don’t know what the bones in my wrist are called, but look! Without the pudge I can see that they give definition and some grace.
It used to be that by the middle of the day, it looked and felt like there were water balloons wrapped around my ankles beneath the skin. They still get a little puffy, but no where nearly as much as before. Last night I enjoyed a nice soak in the bathtub, and I could actually lean forward and massage my own feet and explore my ankle bones. Yes, when standing I can touch my toes. It’s also a lot easier to scrub or scratch my own back.
Ahh, the simple pleasures that thinner people might take for granted.
Please don’t think that I spend a lot of time freakishly obsessed with touching myself. These discoveries come about mostly through observation, but I think they’re important to note. I’m learning to see what’s real about my body at every stage of the game. Remember back earlier in my progress when I couldn’t truly see the weight loss because of my “fat eyes” syndrome? I need to recognize and celebrate the positive changes. It’s healthy to have a clear picture of my body.
My body and I have been estranged for so long, it’s about time we got re-acquainted.